:: Fake off!!
people fake! always fake! salesmen… they fake trust! waiters … they fake caring! air Stewardesses … they fake smiles!! women… they fake kindness! men… they fake strength! we all… ALL… fake courage!
we fake ourselves! even when we put our empty heads on our feather pillows, we turn our faces to the truth and choose to fake ourselves, BTW, I don’t mind at all, as long as its convenient, why not? but sometimes it’s not really a strategic decision, it’s a stupid one! exactly like having a small headache, its very convenient to take a pain killer and move on, dealing with the symptoms without knowing the reason for the headache! sometime we even convince ourselves (fake) that its because we didn’t sleep well, we didn’t have breakfast or just stress! and again, its totally fine when the pain killer is enough,, why exaggerate and visit the doctor for a headache that a stupid pain killer can take care of? but when the headache lasts, and a stronger pain killer is needed,,, again we still fake ourselves that its nothing! this is when its starts to be stupid, stubborn and fake!
I don’t claim (in anyway) that i am any better, i fake and i am fake in many perspectives, but for one matter, i decided (for once) to stand for it, face it, stop faking and confront myself courageously with an ugly truth! just to go to the doctor and find out what the hell is giving me that heartache!!
the result was very interesting, when we are in love, deeply, when we feel ready and willing to give a leg and arm for the person we love, when we actually feel that we gave a lot but for nothing in return, and when that other person is never there (when we need them), never appreciates (when you give them our world), never cares (when we’re hurt).. besides that love we have, a new grudge tumor starts to grow slowly, full of ill wills and hold against, in an unseen corner of the heart!! it destroys everything, all the pink dreams turns into a killing desire of revenge!! I never had the courage to face it, I never felt it but I never stopped and tried to figure it out also! instead, we had the fake courage to face each other to satisfy our dignity a bit by hurting each others, we were trying to take our revenge and before we know it, we let that tumor eat us from within!!
it happened twice, but never again, I hope!!
Music Mood IN DUBAI: [ UAE Anthem]
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Denial!! we live in constant denial, to convince ourselves that everything is just FINE and mostly it is not fine..
we are disappointed and we escape it to denial
what you wrote here, is real, and one of the best..
and yeah..LOL on the music moood…am not sure if it was an intentional tactic, where at the end of the post , you are ending up with some sad emotions and nostalgic memories and then the music mood comes to crack you up LOL, if it was intentional, then GOOD JOB!
sometimes its fear behind fake.. since a long time ago and after couple of “fake” lessons, i learned a line: “sho a**ra eshe momken yseer? so let it be.. it wont kill me” no need to fake when ur not afraid.. (applies to most of times) ..
worst feeling is when love turns to revenge.. revenge would come easy but brings more hurt withIN it.. even if we fake that hurt AND healing.. its there.. however, we NEED to pass this road.. we just need to!
This is how your post touched me..
As Free Whispers said, this one is one of your best posts
It touched the bottom of my heart (Always thought there was no bottom but endless void
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I am one of the people who fake a lot both ways
one using my free will one fighting the devil within. For example sometimes we love ppl but due to what you mentioned this would give a birth to unseen hatred or let me say that hatred will start awakening to some. I realized that we all humans have that part of us in our heart but I didn’t fake it and in fact I fought it giving it my all but the hard thing is when no matter what we try we are being defeated and continuously losing, We can be honest (Using our free will) but again we are not allowed to do so the only choice remaining is to “Fake” it and consume the pain…
I know that was kinda vague XD btw Hamzah u should read Angel Sanctuary