:: Thru a Crystal Ball!

Long time ago, back in 2025, as I was driving my nice brand new sport convertible car up the hill toward my beautiful huge house, I felt for moment, just for less than a second, that all my senses were doubled, I was seeing two parallel scenes, the one before my eyes, trees, flowers and green all over, and the other one was playing in the back of my head, of my twin daughters, playing with and teasing their little brother, my son, in the front garden as I am parking my car, like every normal working shiny day. I couldn’t ignore the smell of nature, the wet grass is one of my favorite smells, but also I was recalling the smell of wife’s cooking, you know, earlier that day, she told me she prepared my favorite meal during our midday phone call. I switched the stereo off so I can enjoy the bird’s song that magically didn’t top the noise of my children every morning when they wake up… yeah that was playing in the back of my head as well! It’s true I was eating the amazing sandwich that my sweetheart gave me this morning, I didn’t have the time to eat it during lunch break! But I didn’t want to break her heart by brining it back uneaten! And also I didn’t want her to lose her motive to prepare it every morning! Even if I had that amazing taste in my mouth, I also was longing for the taste of her lips! They taste like peaches, I love peaches! My hands were on the steering wheel of course, the air passing between my fingers felt exactly like her black shiny hair passing through them… I had 5 senses, but 10 sensations! Ops, I am here, everything in my life is around this corner, I will park the car and spend the rest of the evening with my family appreciating my life! but SHIT, where is the house? Where are the children? Where is the garden? Where is the car? What happened to the trees and birds? Where are all these colors? Seriously, where the hell is my car? And above all, where is the wife? Something happened here, how come it’s only an empty spot of land in the middle of the desert that smells ash? You know how did it feel? It felt wrong!

Exactly like having your underwear’s backwards, nothing in place, nothing in order, nothing feels right, it’s painful, hurtful and tearful… exactly like 2009!

Music Mood: [ What a Wonderful World]

~ by Hamzeh Hamarneh on March 1, 2009.